This makes me happy.

Spending time with good friends is medicine to the heart. Nurturing to the soul. We love you Brekers! And yes, I had to choose the picture with two out of three two-year olds crying. It was a long, fun day of play!

You guys are so blessed! And you are a blessing to us!! You can find Lindsey over at Adventures of Joyful Living , Lindsey you are such a beautiful mom and mother. I am blessed to know you!



Snowy Days in Minnesota

Who doesn't love a great day in the snow. The snowy days are even more fun after being away for 4 months in the tropics of the Pacific Northwest. :)

We had a great morning making some art! I have been working on selling things here in Minnesota, furniture, random things - clearing out the closets! All at the same time, having fun with my boys and my girl, doing some art projects with the blank canvases that were in storage. It's always good to use the things that sat in storage way too long! Now that we are moving from this home why not, right? :)

I do love this home. I love my neighbors. I can breathe in this space, it is so peaceful, so relaxing. I see my boys thrive here, they play outside, they play in the snow, we watch the squirrels and the birds in the 100 year old oak trees out back. There is something so beautiful and simple about the life we live in this home. Family, church, sunny days at the baseball parks, play. I loved every minute of building this home, planning it, love my neighbors, love my family here, love the beautiful state of Minnesota that has been my home the past fifteen years! This home is a beautiful haven of a home that I absolutely love! Sometimes people assume when there is a YES to something, that it means no to everything else. IT'S JUST NOT THE CASE. I love Minnesota, love this home. Always have always will. I don't know the plans, but God does! What a sweet time we are having here after four months away, just hanging as a family while daddy goes to work. Watching Christmas movies, playing in the snow, doing art projects, selling what is left here. It's all good!

So much fun watching Andrew be art director today, he had a vision for these two canvases and his younger siblings implemented it. They were delighted to take part. "Favorite, favorite" Annabel kept saying, she loved making art with her brothers.

Merry Christmas everyone.

You are loved.






Food Insecurities

I'm going to keep this post short and sweet. It is too deep of a topic to dive into for the night. I just want to say this.

Be happy and thankful for food.

Enjoy the feeling of safety that you may have and not even realize that you have.

Enjoy a peaceful warm bed to sleep in.

One of my sons is now dealing with some very real food insecurities. He is mumbling untruths under his breath in the back of the car, on the way to lunch saying he is not hungry, doesn't need food. That I don't want to feed him lunch or dinner. 

Can I tell you that the devil has a way of creeping into the smallest of moments and trying to steal my joy? I simply won't have it. 

My children are made for such a time as this! They have gone through so much in their short lives, more than most could ever comprehend! And yet this is exactly today where God would have them. And he is moving! And teaching them and comforting them right in their need.

There is a battle for my son's heart. And there is healing that needs to take place. Let me tell you today friends that we can't do this thing called parenting alone. We need God to breathe life into our situations, life into our very bones. Breathe of life rain down on us parents! He does. He is always there. He sees those small moments and he knows them before they even happen.

These moments we have been having lately, many of them so absolutely beautiful my heart can hardly stand it! And then there are the little untruths that creep in and are spoken quietly and oh no, I do not accept those words!! Oh my heart aches for these situations, the healing that is a work in progress. The spoken word is powerful. I am reminded that in hearing these spoken words it is a blessing that I am able to understand what is going through my child's mind compared to nothing spoken. I try to be thankful even though I do not accept these untruths and I choose to speak life over this situation time and again despite the continual words pouring out in the quietness of my boy's heart. Oh sweet boy I love you, I love to feed you, I love to nurture you. And right where you were, where you used to be, you were loved. You were taken care of, God saw you then and he sees you now. 

Right now we are in a season of healing. I see it. I know it. We had the joy filled homecoming, we have joyful amazing days now. And then we have the healing. The brokeness that becomes so evident and my soul screams for a redeemer. Jesus, heal this ache in my child's heart. I can speak life, I can speak love, I can tell him we are on our way to a restaurant right now. Mommy is making food when we get home. But something in him is fighting a serious battle right now.

It is making him stronger, I know. And he will conquer. But oh it can be tough sometimes as a parent when to the depths of your being you know what is being spoken is not true. I am a speaker of truth! And I speak life to the situation, but oh the mumbles and the groans of a child's heart and how as a parent you long to heal that deepest place and bring peace and rest to that special spot.

Only God. It is in Him that we find healing, the beauty in the process, and it makes me fall to my knees and be thankful for the mess, thankful for the trials. I persevere and I am stronger. Oh I am blessed by my children. I love them. God has big plans for their lives, he is doing a work even now in their hearts. The battle is real. Love wins.



Baby Girl's Second B-day

Annabel turns 2!

We kept it simple for baby girl's 2nd b-day, a few cupcakes and some pink balloons. Her birthday was Thanksgiving Day and spur of the moment we decided to throw a few cupcakes onto a platter the day before when she was awake. She had been sick that week so sometimes you just have to roll with it.. baby awake and ready for action - k get the goods out and start singing Happy Birthday!

Annabel is pure delight, she is such a joy to have in our family and I am honored to be her mother. Thank you Annabel for being you. I am blessed to be your mom!