When was the last time you were in a position where you knew something was impossible? When was the last time you actually knew without a shadow of a doubt you could not do something in your own power. When was the last time you stepped out of your comfort zone and into the unknown. Basically, when was the last time you allowed God to do the unthinkable, the unimaginable. When was the last time you set yourself up for a miracle. That's right, set yourself up. Because God likes to do more than we could ever ask or imagine, he knows the desires of our hearts, he is a good God who likes to lavish his children with gifts from above.
Tonight I was thinking on one particular little one who needs a home. I was thinking how it is so easy to want to be comfortable, to know exactly how it's all going to work, to plan, to see it all coming together, to feel like it's just the right time, to see your finances be ready, your job be ready, your home be ready.. everything ready... and then I was thinking on this. I DON'T WANT TO BE READY. I WANT GOD. I WANT MORE OF HIM AND LESS OF ME. I WANT ALL HE HAS FOR ME IN THIS LIFE. NOT READINESS. NOT PREPAREDNESS. OH NO, BECAUSE GUESS WHAT - WHEN I KNOW WITHOUT A SHADOW OF A DOUBT THAT I CAN'T DO SOMETHING IN MY OWN POWER, THAT'S JUST WHEN I GET TO SEE MORE OF HIM AND LESS OF ME. Trust me, I need help in this life. I don't have it all together, I need more of him and less of me. I want to see him every single day. I want his overflowing abundance of joy and hope and love and healing and breakthrough to flow through me like a river. I want my children and my children's children and my children's children's children to know this overflowing abundance of love and grace and hope and peace. Do you know what sets an example more than anything? Not having it all together, being completely vulnerable to your kids and transparent and saying you know what, we don't have all the answers, we don't know what it would look like, we don't know as we have never.. but GOD. God in His beauty and abundance will meet us just as we need. He will be there every step of the way. He will guide us, he will lead us. What a blessing and privilege and honor to serve him all the days of our life.
Not in my power, but in His alone. With God all things are possible. Lets set ourselves up for miracles, ok. Lets put ourselves in unique positions to see His glory unfold, His story be told. God, the author. Protector. Provider. Redeemer.
I get it now you know, the story. The one where I travel 34 weeks pregnant to pick up my son.
It's because it's His.
His beautiful story that only he could write.
The one where he takes our broken messy lives and makes beauty from dust.
God, the Author. It's your story. All for your glory.
"I will sing to the LORD all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live." Psalm 104:33